One reason I study so single-mindedly here is because I'm afraid that this dream is going to come crashing down on me one day if I don't get some skills, literally. My apple drawings aren't going to cut it unfortunately, but speaking Chinese might....all I want out of life is a little freedom, just a little. I am happy right now because I have time to draw apples and study and travel once in a while, and I like my job.....I guess I'm just afraid of one day returning to Canada and have to wash socks (okay, I wouldn't mind washing socks if I had to), get up early for a job I hate, work long mindless hours void of any chance of self-improvement etc., Am I being unreasonable?
This week I've got to do two things: find a second apartment near ZZU and inquire about next term's courses. I am sure it's going to be a crazy year coming up, work-load-wise. I'm nervous, so I'm hoping to buy the books ahead of time and review them before classes begin. I need an apartment near ZZU because I don't want to live on campus: it's expensive and the gate locks at 11pm, precluding any late-ish bike riding opportunities. The beds aren't comfortable there, either.
Going to bed now. Nighty night.
Pictures: An edited version of a painting I took a picture of in Beijing, editing job by a friend at school; ZT's toes.